今天

早上,原本很开心的,咱们可以三人行,她们还有男友作伴..
结果...
一早就电话打来说--姨丈去世了................. :(
not a good starting.

到了mid,突然觉得好寂寞好寂寞....
是身边的寂寞,但更多的是,心的寂寞.................
kung fu panda, movie of the day, 1st thing to cheer me up... :)
sibek酱cute咯他小时候.............. ><
但,第一次,一个人看戏...
整排,就只我一个... ==
一个人吃着爆米花....................... u u
后来,咱们又一起买了皮包, 2nd thing dat make my day :):)

后来..后来...没有了.

眼睛有些累,累得想睡觉;
心有些累, 累得想哭.......


或许,他即将离开...
忍不住眼泪流,但还是得控制
至少过了kastam也不能让它过边境... ==
很,想念他.

ciao~

hey ya..!
again, renewing my blog for after 2 weeks it lives with spider webs.. (lol~)


so.. due to the skul and public holiday of labour day..
every1's resting in their home and... it's our working time.. :'(


after 4 days working, finally our jobs done.. :)
so "lucky", for getting an "o-chae" bcz of myself
really lk a dai fan xu.. pokai.. really really paiseh...>< ""
thank you to a guy who cares bout me after looking at my blog and keep asking me nt to 忍 (lol~)
although it's lk ntg but it means a lot to me, thank you for caring, my fren ;)


after dat, wed is the outing day for 3 of us.. again :P
it's the last time 3 of us goin out at wed b4 the skul reopen. so sad.. :(
it's a crazy-shopping-and-eating-day dat i bought lotsa things including mum's present for mother's day, my own shirt, my 1st high heels (low enuf... ==), chocolates and the very-impressed-me-cookies, a sibek delicious choco cookies, it really makes my day :)
wed, pink day, so BR will be in the list too.. :)
cheese-baked-rice + black pepper chicken, walau ehh..!
sibek gue gien whn recalling... mmmmmmm......... DELICIOUS >

here's a pic of us eating ice-cream
it's been a long long time we didn't take pic 2gtr... so miss it.. ><
it was really a happy day hanging out with 2 of them, it's lk part of my life...
tQ so much my girls for giving me so much... evrythn... it means a lot to me :D

thn the next day, 2day
we're settling the form 6 things since morning and..
we sat on wen's car for the 1st time 2day... ><
yep, i mean car she's driving..
nt bad seriously, i lk it ;)
...and being "lucky" again for getting an "o-chae" AGAIN..!
wat the.... speechless to myself... 
yen wong.. cn't even look properly with 4 eyes.........==''


thn, 3 of us hanging out 2gtr, AGAIN...
mayb others feel so boring seeing 3 of us goin out 2gtr, again and again
(mayb they feel boring for us oso ==)
but no1 noes, y must we b 2gtr all the time
y we always stick 2gtr, no1, never..........

coz i dunno either... Xb

讲讲废话放放屁

24.04.11

--OUTBAC OPEN DAY-- 

六点钟,神早喽喽走去厨房
就我和芳两条水
还有一条乌黑的道路
伴着凉风
还有虫鸣和狗吠声.........(lol~开个玩笑 :P)

要做三文治+杯子蛋糕
结果居然没有鸡蛋,七早八早就出状况(天啊~~)
..................................................................................
如此如此这般这般,事情解决,很快的9点就到了~^^
我的拍档,很幸运的就是"呜噜噜"

没错,就是这位超人 Xb
话说,这张照片也是我拍的...><(lol)
跟他工作简直是.....................................没得顶
--超级无敌的...废!!--

一天下来,总共管了4站
最轻松的莫过于flying fox了,凉风习习,有没有太阳,人又不多...
爽啊~~
开心的是,今天还能见到他 :)


27.04.11

就是今天了,我们在一起2个月的日子
但是.................愤怒!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
chicken egg cake啊~!
昨晚也不晓得吃错什么东西,
半夜3点梦到自己肚子痛,
结果迷迷糊糊醒来发现居然真的是肚子痛 ==''
又热的要命... ><'''''''''
所以就从3点多开始拉肚子清肠胃... 无言.................. :(
好不容易搞到5点,哥哥的闹钟都响了才勉强睡得下去
结果...不到一个钟,开始觉得很冷
然后,还下雨... 冷到~ ><
然后,盖了两张被,又继续睡..........
过不久,又太热,起床的时候才8点多..天啊..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!
到底是什么西西,搞到我睡都不安宁
我誓与它势不两立!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  
T T..累死了....................................................................

忍

在这之前18年了
忍忍忍,
这是我每天每时每分每刻每秒都在提醒自己 
每秒都在实践
一直都在忍
忍 别人的目光
忍 别人的脾气

别人看不起,我忍
别人不爽拿我出气,我忍
别人把脾气发在我身上,我忍
逆来顺受,我都忍了


还以为说身边多了一个人
至少我还有个偶尔可以歇歇的角落
至少在这里还能得到些许"公平对待"
结果
的确有"公平对待"
跟别人一样"公平的对待"我...


忍忍忍,我什么时候才能摆脱你这个烦东西的纠缠
什么时候我才能把心中所有所有的不满都发泄出来
什么时候我才能像你们那样也把不满的情绪对别人大吼
什么时候我才能告诉你们说:我也是人!!佛都有火,何况是我!!!

有时真的忍无可忍
但又不忍心伤害别人
因为我知道这种感觉不好受
所以到最后还是忍了下来
但这种感觉真的, 不是苦, 不是涩
是一种委屈的感觉
觉得为什么,明明大家都一样
为什么偏偏这些事总落在我头上?
是我好欺负吗?
像只笨乌龟,被打被骂也不会反抗
挺多就躲进壳里慢慢哭...
但我没有壳
所有伤害都直接插进心里
还要装出一副不在乎的样子

我也是有血有肉的人
我也会伤心难过
我有权利

我从来没把任何人当出气筒
所以我也希望不会有人把我当出气筒
我从来没把负面情绪化为责备对别人大吼
所以我也希望不会有人对我大吼发泄


或许在你们生气愤怒不开心的时候
你们觉得把气发在别人身上会很过瘾
感觉像得到解脱,至少自己感觉比较舒服
但你们肯定不会知道的一点就是
无端被你责备的人心里多难受多委屈

所以,不要把自己的负面情绪丢给他人
给他人带来更多不安不爽

我不喜欢.

my weekend..........

lol...
1st --EXHAUSTED...
2nd--FULL!!
 
15 apr
went to genting early at the morning, 
but the night b4, slept at 2++ bcz of bou din wa zok
thn after reach genting, start to play 
playing with the 2 little kids :) cute..
fast food for lunch, buffet for dinner
sibek full ><
midnight, went to lobby bou zok again
sibek cold, freezing~~~><"

16 apr
kids go swimming, i go 8, lol...
fast food again for breakfast ==
noon, went to grandpa's house.
dropped by sekinchan for lunch, seafood :D
thn, for dinner, seafood AGAIN~
lai liu ha, crab crab, tou sat... mmmmm~taste so gud~ ><❤
within 2 hrs, went to KFC for supper
fast food AGAIN!!!
i dun wan to hv fast food i think for couple months, YUCKSSS!!!! 

17 apr
anson chee cheong fan for breakfast❤
walau ehh mou dak deng, the oni chee cheong fan i will eat,
damn delicious arr wehh~!!
thn yau zha guai, with kaya
thn a cup of milo, damn syok arr...!!
playing around with the two kids, lol
lk hyperactive, i've oready exhausted (am i old? hmmm...)
they cn still run and play and everythn... oww.................
sum1? cn sum1 plz call the police? 
SNAIL ABUSE over here!!!  T T
for lunch, seafood again for sure..
but this time jz crab...
finally, home sweet home at almost 5... arhhh............!!!
dinner, goin out again, thn bro gt sick.. kesian lehh......... :(


conclusion for the programme:
1st, never play with kids if u dun hv enuf energy, NEVER :'(
2nd, never eat dat much of fast food :'(
3rd, never eat too much a time, it's hard to keep fit :'(  :'(  :'(
4th, oso the most important thing : REST IS VERY IMPORTANT........!!!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ><~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

R.I.P.

was figuring how to get money for myself
i admit i used lots of it although it's jz the 7th day of apr
thn, at night, dad gives us $$ ^^v

WOOHOO!!
it's very long since the last time he gave us
the amount, nt dat big, but i'm happy 
this is the 1st time i gt money from my parents this yr 
--a bit proud of myself :)--
haha, i did spent a lot this year
(more thn thousands? nahh... i dunno either XD)


thn, i asked my dad to change a new fridge
kesian the 1 in my house, aged more thn 20 yrs ad
but, it still working day and night
although it's a bit sick (lol)
thn, my dad offered himself to save it
it was gud in the begining but thn........................................
........................ bla ............. ......... .............................................................................
.. ....................................... ..... bla .............. ... ..........................
...........bla........ ............. ..................................... ................
ok, so the result is-- we're goin to change a new 1 (lol~~~~)
dad killed it :(


R.I.P. dear fridge~ ..................................==''

..............................

after almost 2 weeks leaving my blog, yeah i'm coming back :)
and the reason is : I CN'T SLEEP~!!! ==''

went to connaught psr mlm with jh, c hai, jackson and of cz gahna too ❤
hmmm...
the 1st time i walk with him in psr mlm ;)
and ya, i'm happy...^^


we had a coffee-flavoured ice, and dat's y i'm here...............==''


 

一个女孩的故事

这是我去年某次考试所写的作文,题目忘了,内容就是--
"一个女孩的故事"

记得当初那篇作文,很好笑
自创结局,写到有来有去..

今天,故事的主人翁,真正地给这个故事画上了句号.
话说,这个故事讲述一个很坚强的女孩
这个17岁的女孩,也是家中长女,命运格外坎坷
先是疼爱她的姑姑客死他乡
再来让她招架不住的就是她爸爸突然倒下...
她爸爸,中风了.

17岁,一个让人期待也享受的年纪
她的那一年,都献给了无数的金钱包袱..一箩又一箩的烦恼...
校园,朋友,家人...
17岁,人人都自私得想把所有最美好的回忆收藏起来
这个女孩,根本没时间去自私...


8,9个月,就这么过去了
总总压力和烦恼之下,这个女孩考了spm
终于,等到了成绩放榜的日子
就在前一晚的半夜,她爸爸被送入院.......
隔天,成绩出炉,她考获8A佳绩...
她告诉病床上昏迷的爸爸,他没能给任何反应........................

两天后,就是昨天,她爸爸离开了..
她没有叹气休息的机会
她只能够继续走,再疲惫也得走下去
身为家中长女,她必须这么做


你能想象吗?
一个18岁的女孩,要替自己爸爸办身后事
处理那些我们听过的没听过的,见过的没见过的,甚至完全不知道的事
这当中需要多少的能耐,多少的坚持,多少的力气
少一点都撑不下去
所以我说,我很佩服这个女孩..


话说,从头到尾我都称她"女孩"
虽然她就是叫大姐,但她还是个女孩
至少我认为,她是
18岁,不该是个女人
18岁,应该是个女孩,只是这个女孩,被逼一夜成长....................................

-完-

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